Monday, September 18, 2006

rachel: nothing but a short battle

So the end of the year draws nigh unto us again bringing in a breeze of nostalgia. Once again, we see ourselves turn to the religion of studying, paying much obeisance to the books on our table. I believe we are all praying creatures, and certainly the Divine Power has received more whispers from down below than usual, but when I picture myself praying, I somehow get the impression that I'm praying to my books instead.

For me, its been a weird ride the first week of school. The hols were a good time for me to catch up on my work. Not all though. But I must say, it was a wonderful week what with the IMF-World Bank Youth Opened Space Dialogue that I participated in which, for all those who went, provided the much needed platform to test our faith in the things we learnt at school, particularly the humanities.

That aside, I'm feeling a certain tension in the air nowadays due to everyone panicking about the promotionals. Nonetheless, I somehow feel that its just a vibe thing, its cool to panic. Whatever it is, I just want remind everyone that studying is our battle-whether we like it or not. There's the System and its ways which we may not be too pleased about, but let's just stop complaining and work within the confines of what we have.

More spiritually for me, I feel that this battle is not a battle of grades where the outcome concludes everything but as the old cliched idea: the process. I'm not about to sacrifice a night-worth's of sleep to finish what I have to do for the day and sacrifice the alertness I need tomorrow. I guess we are all different and our pleasure and victories arise from different things. For those out there who belief in a God, perhaps its time we included Him in the battle.

Personally, I've had difficulties putting up with that commitment. Its easy to sin when you're busy and tired for you impute Christ more magnanimity than He has for sin. For us who pray, let us pray earnestly and sincerely, for the devil delights in empty prayer and for him who prays to think he is doing OK.

On a happier note: Happy studying.